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Jayne Jaudon Ferrer

Believe it or not,
I know how it feels.
For me,
it was Gary Stephens.
6’ 6”, probably all of
a hundred and thirty pounds . . .
I thought he was gorgeous.
I timed all my locker breaks around his.
He didn’t know I was alive.
So I know how it feels,
When he doesn’t smile back,
when he winks at someone else,
when you think, “This will be the day!”,
but it isn’t.
Today, that boy will not tease you
in the hallway.
Today, that boy will not ask you to
meet him at the mall.
Today that boy will not notice that
you are amazing, and can talk about anything,
and have incredible eyes.
But someday,
some boy
From Dancing with My Daughter: Poems of Love, Wisdom & Dreams (Loyola Press) 
Used here with the author’s permission. 

Jayne Jaudon Ferrer is the author of five books of poetry, a nonfiction book about games, and a novel, Hayley and the Hot Flashes. Jayne created in 2009 to share the pleasure and diversity of poetry. A former copywriter, magazine editor, newspaper columnist, and freelance journalist, her work has appeared in hundreds of publications. When not writing or reading, Jayne enjoys music, old movies, gardening, hiking, and good conversation. A native Floridian, she has lived in Greenville, South Carolina, for almost 30 years. Learn more about her at




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Ginny C.:
Good one.
Posted 08/29/2013 06:19 PM
barbara eknoian:
I totally relate to this poem, especially hanging out by his locker. SWEET!
Posted 08/29/2013 12:27 PM
Love it, Jayne. Takes me back several decades!
Posted 08/29/2013 11:42 AM
Great poem, Jayne. As I recall, it was pretty much the same for the boys.
Posted 08/29/2013 11:18 AM
wendy morton:
Lovely, Jayne. The someday always arrives, and then, often, several more somedays.
Posted 08/29/2013 09:47 AM
There is nothing as bitter sweet as the first crush. Well captured,
Posted 08/29/2013 09:37 AM
This really hits a memeory. Amazing how your poem took me right back to the lockers, the boys, etc. I missed him for a moment.
Posted 08/29/2013 09:35 AM
Yep, this takes me back, no question.
Posted 08/29/2013 08:55 AM
Love the poem and the great advice.
Posted 08/29/2013 08:51 AM
Love it, Jayne! Been there and done that!
Posted 08/29/2013 08:13 AM
o so true...brings back the intensity of that first love of mine--unrequited, of course! thanks Jayne...
Posted 08/29/2013 07:30 AM
Great advice. Summer camp offered the same agony. And between the lines: a mother's love.
Posted 08/29/2013 05:40 AM
Love this poem--and it's so true!!
Posted 08/29/2013 04:35 AM

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